This is right.

13 01 2009

I wake up some days and I get that feeling that this is right.  This is how today should feel.  I am in the right place and going the right direction.  I am okay.  That life is unfolding as it should.  That all the decisions and mistakes before today bear no regrets.  Everything is fine.  Its not perfect, but that’s not the point.

Its easy to be that exuberant in the morning. Before I hit traffic, before I get to work, before I see my to do list, before I have a chance to think about where I’d rather be and who I’d rather be with. 

Today I’m going to try hard not to lose that morning exuberance.  Just because life is going to throw challenges at me hard and fast, it will not change my opinion  that overall, life is going very well.


Year of the Lover

12 01 2009


I want Year of the Lover by Lloyd to be my anthem for 2009.  The song is sexy and passionate.  It has a smooth sound quality, the way I wish my year could flow without the roller coasters of past romances.  I don’t want to be single.  I want to be a Lover.  I want to be sharing my life with someone and feel very connected with each other physically and mentally.  (I do not want to be having a baby as the song suggests, but would be happy to partake in all the fun things in the song)

Unfortunately, my current theme song is Love Lockdown by Kanye.  I’m a girl in love with someone not right for her.  And although I’ve  made peace with those facts, I can do nothing more than wait for those feelings for him to wear away slowly.  Just not fast enough for me.